Take me back… Just take me back…
To when you were here, physically here. You could put your arms around me when I needed a hug, you could tuck me in at night when I was feeling scared, you could take care of me when I felt sick, you could love me when I least deserved it because that’s when I needed it the most. You could talk to me when I was feeling alone, you could lecture me when I had done something wrong, you could give me advice when I needed help, you could hold me when I cried because I just could not take the pressure or heartbreak. You could take me to work with you because I wanted to help, you could watch TV with me because I didn’t want to go to bed yet, you could play games with me when none of my friends ever came, you could believe in me like no one else ever would….
Those are the days I miss the most.
There’s certain times when these moments hit you. If you’ve ever lost a parent you can probably relate. If you haven’t, then you just can’t quite get it as much as you may want to. But the only way to get through it is to let it happen. We’re not crying for attention, we’re not asking for sympathy, we’re not trying to make you feel bad, it’s just the way we release things. I wish there was another way but I can’t call up my mom and talk to her, I can’t get in the car and go visit her, I can’t give her a hug or a kiss, all I can do is dream, imagine, and hope. Because one day, in the future, we WILL be reunited and I want her to know everything I’ve felt. But until that day comes all I can do is write, post, reminisce, and somehow get through it all while dealing with those other struggles of day to day life we all think are the end of the world.
Simply Misunderstood xo 